It's Christmas, obviously, and I just finished watching Inception with my mother. I saw it in the theater when it came out, and I'm pretty sure I'll never forget the end of the movie. Not for the "WTF WTF WTF" moment (if you've seen it, you know what I mean) but for the music. Hans Zimmer rules my life. I swear to god when I was in the theater, and that music was booming at me like a jet engine, I had one of my music nerdgasms and almost teared up. The first time scores of movies really got me was when I was like eight. It was Princess Mononoke. I have precious memories of laying in my white day-bed at my dad's house with my portable CD player. I would literally be lying there in the dark trembling with the awesomeness. Nothing really rivals that feeling when I first hear a new movie score that hits me like a train. I've been hitting the preview button in iTunes for the ending music to Inception over and over for about half an hour. I'm waiting for my friend to email the track to me so I don't have to pay $1.29.
But Christmas is over, and this year pretty much does it for me and the holiday season. I'm dumping you for good, holiday season. For years I wanted to think you were magical. That it was a time for joy and love. But it's not. It's not at all. And I'm done living in a fairy tale. Because one person wanting to think the season is about joy and love, in a sea of people who act as though it's about being selfish and idiotic, can't do one single thing. And I no longer have the strength to really believe in my own beliefs anymore.
Wow, iTunes just busted me on how many times I've listened to that preview. Apparently I'm cut off. Jerks.
Anyway, I'm probably going to read for the rest of the night. I finally gave in to Robert Jordan, after being skeptical for years because of the really awful covers on those books. I wanted to believe they were probably crap. I don't know why. I really don't. Especially when there's like twelve of them and the quote on the front of the first one says something about Jordan opening up the world that Tolkien had just started to create. I mean, a quote like that would make anyone want to find out what could possibly be better than Tolkien. But I turned up my nose for years. And now, damn it to hell, I'm hooked, albeit mildly turned off from the ridiculous tendency to name EVERYBODY, even characters who have no need of names. But hopefully that track from Inception arrives soon, and I can blast it over and over to my heart's content.